Shaving, and the grand scheme of things.

I have a small dilemma. I have now worn the same stuff to the gym twice in a row and it needs washing. I bought myself some nice little gym pants that are 3/4 lengths and I plan to wear them to the gym tomorrow.

The only thing is, I haven't shaved my legs for as long I can remember. 

The gym is not somewhere I'm desperate to look good. But I feel that nagging feeling that it would be so crazy for me to go and people not be able to tell where my trousers stop and my legs begin.

I haven't joined a gym because I care what I look like. I haven't joined because I want to change my weight. I have come more to terms with my body recently than ever before. I am learning, relearning in fact, how to value myself as a person, independent of my weight, independent of my hair, my skin, my clothes. Basically independent of my appearance and more for the qualities I possess as a person (albeit a hermity-type person). I've always believed in working hard to gain success, and the same goes for going to the gym (though I am yet to determine a goal other than "be healthier"). I just need to put my head down and do it. 

Which is one of my main problems: discipline. Self-discipline to be more precise because I never really misbehaved in school (the one time I got sent out of class was because I was protesting that we had yet another History teacher that year, and I just wanted some consistency and quality in our education...) 

So the exercises that the chiropractor sets me, the yoga workouts and now gym attendance, really depends on a self-discipline that I am lacking. Eating healthily depends on it too. I'm lacking the discipline that gets me beyond the 2nd week of a fitness kick (I'm in the 2nd week and I'm struggling, mainly because I was so ill at the weekend).

I need to have the structure in place that means I do not automatically go for a chocolate bar when I feel peckish. It means I need to learn how to cook and feed myself more effectively, more healthily. I need to educate myself about food, fitness, carbs, fats, reps and gosh knows what else.

So in the grand scheme of things, I don't have time to shave my legs. I've got so much reading to do!

Although I have already learned that being healthy does not require me to get an overpriced juice from Westfield when I walk home.

And what I've learned from my two sessions at the gym so far is that I need a gym bag. And a bigger towel. And I have such puny, puny arms!